Facing the Giants

We are so bad at watching movies. There are plenty that we want to see, but it's just kinda hard to find a couple hour stretch to sit down and watch a movie- undisturbed. The other evening after Sam went to bed Steve put on the movie Facing the Giants. For those of you who haven't seen it, it's amazing, and I would highly recommend it. The movie dealt with a lot of different topics and struggles that one family was going through. It brought up many emotions and feelings that I haven't had in a long time. Steve and I are "trying again" which is going to make many people so excited- us too! Although it comes with many doubts and uncertainty. It took almost 2 years to get pregnant with Sammy, and even then it was quite a miracle to finally see a positive result on the test. It kinda scares me that it will take that long to get pregnant again. In the movie a couple is faced with the same issue with conceiving as we did, the husband asked his wife "if God chooses to not give us children, will you still love and serve him?" I know on first response many would say of course, hands down, but being in that situation I can truly say that it is very hard to say yes. Not that my faith is dependent on what God can do for me, but truly being able to surrender to His will and say "Lord I trust you with my life, and I will love you through any circumstance." It was such a difficult time in our lives, we just wanted a child to give back to the lord, so that He would be glorified in it all. Samuel: asked of God. Please pray for us as we enter down this new path in our lives. That even if Sam is the only child God chooses to bless us with, that we will "still love him", and that if he does choose to give us a baby, that it would be fast, I get discouraged fast :(

Lesson 2
I have been nervous about Sammy's upcoming Igg tests and the results. Feb 14 was supposed to be the date in which we get the answer of yes or no to the blood transfusions. God has done such amazing things in Sam's life already, sometimes I just feel like maybe this is when we will not have the miracle in his healing like we have had before. I know that it is my lack of focus, and I need not to fear anything. In FTG there was a football team that really just stunk and then the coach (the husband of the couple I had mentioned before) had committed his team to Praise God if they win or if they lose. Wow did that speak volumes to me. Lord I know that if you heal Sammy then we will praise you, and Lord if you chose not to and we have to do transfusions, Lord we will praise you even more! This movie seriously was made just for me, I really needed to learn each lesson that was addressed.

So the morning after we watched the movie I got a call from the Dr. and the nurse had said that The Dr. wants to wait till after Sammy has turned 2. Another month might just be what we need! Please pray that this extra month will just make his levels skyrocket and the idea of transfusions would be a joke, but also please pray for our strength if that is not the case.

Praise the Lord no matter what the outcome!!